I’m not a genius
I was not born as a genius and not even an intelligent. It was only once in my whole life that I got 1st place in my class and it was in Standard 1. After that, I struggled a lot just to make sure I was in the top ten. Luckily, I got straight A in my UPSR. Everyone just worried with my result as I always not consistent.
All my eldest siblings (my bro n my sis) went to a boarding school for their secondary school. My big challenge was my brother who is just 1 year older than me and was selected to study at Malay College Kuala Kangsar (MCKK- 1 of the famous school in Msia). I didn’t get any offer to further my study in boarding school. I knew that I had let down my parents. So, I made a decision to further my study in a religious school in Ipoh. I might make my parents proud with that.
I got a lot of tense for my PMR because my brother had got straight A(8As) for his PMR. My sister was studying abroad by that time. However, all the tense made me stronger and motivated. I didn’t get straight A for my PMR but still got 8 A’s as I was taking Arabic Language. I wanted to further my study in Technic school but my dad didn’t agree with it. I submitted all the application form and waited for the reply.
This life has been written by God. There must be a reason why I didn’t been selected to any other school. Almost half of my batch was selected to MRSM, Kolej Islam and any other school. For me, I continued my journey at that school.
I was taking 11 subjects for my SPM including Information technology. From there I knew how much I love computer and internet. After all the strive and struggle, I got 4 A’s and the rest is B. For me, it is excellent enough but for the world, who will look at my result. My family was so happy and proud of me. Actually, it was the first time I felt that I was something to my own family. This is all because my brother got worse result than me. But I still envy him for his achievement in sport. Look at his achievement make me realize that I’ve turned to a bookworm, geek or something!
After SPM, I knew that I had to choose how my future will be. If it was according to what I like, I would choose a computer study or something about it but I had to be more rational. My dad didn’t agree if I choose computer or business study as there is a limited chance for a work as he said. Actually my parents wanted their child to be a doctor, lawyer, architect or engineer.They preferred if I will be a doctor. For myself, I just didn’t know yet.
Then, I got an offer from KPM’s matriculation. I just went there and started my new adventure. Again I had to make a choice either Physic or Biology. I love both subject. I am not good in chemistry but it is compulsory. Actually I still wanted badly to be a computer engineer, graphic designer or something. However, I choose Biology so that I’ll become a doctor and fulfill my parents’ dream.
In the first semester, because of the culture shock I guessed, my result was not good enough. I struggled for the 2nd sem (final sem) and I got a good result but it just not enough for applying to study abroad or to apply medical study. From there I knew how I love biology so much.
After 1 year of matriculation, I had to make an application to further my study to University. I still apply for medical study eventhough I knew my result is not enough. As my parents knew about my not-so-excellent result, they suggested me to become a teacher. So, for my application, I applied Biology education and Mathematic education in UPM. I applied from University in Peninsular Msia only. My mom didn’t want me to study at Sabah or Sarawak as she didn’t want to be far away from her daughter, her youngest princess!
My life has been changed since I got my SPM’s result. I was labeled as the cleverest child in a family now. I have been asked to help my younger brother in his Maths and Science. And I still remember how I told him that I’m no genius but I work hard and never stop and all I got was just 4 A’s but for him, I knew he is genius and if he do it well he will get the best SPM’s result among all of us. By that time, there were tears in the corner of my eyes. I’m not genius!
I was selected to further my study in UPM for a Bachelor of Science and Education in Biology. That’s mean I’m gonna be a teacher. During my 4 years study I knew what I love and hate about Biology and education! Here, I fulfilled my dream to study about computer as I took ICT as my 2nd subject. I was so lucky to have a group of friend who just really enjoy to study. We make a clever and stand out group during that time. Those years were my great time with my friends.
I failed to achieve 1st class degree honor but I’m glad with my result and what I’ve turned to; stronger, more mature, braver (sound like an ad now),
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